Do I have anything to say?: One of "Those" Days

Monday, September 21, 2009

One of "Those" Days

I should have been "well-rested" when I got up this morning since I went to bed at a fairly decent hour and didn't have to get up at an "un-decent" hour. However, right now I feel like I could go to bed and sleep through the night. I am feeling sort of nauseous, but have been "on the brink of tears" or crying ALL DAY LONG. One of "those" days I guess...

I didn't feel badly when I woke up, but by the time I was doing my hair after my shower, the tears began. My first inkling it may just be one of "those" days I guess. The song I used for this slide show came on my iPod and the tears filled my eyes. What the heck! Well, maybe I was feeling a little sentimental and missing my friends...maybe there is hope for a "normal" day...maybe.

I got tears in my eyes again at some song I can't even remember as I was driving to my appointment with the counselor. Seriously, now, what the heck is this all about!

Of course there were tears throughout my session...that will be a post for "later", but at least those tears seemed to have some sort of "purpose".

Today is my sister's birthday and I had lunch with her, my mom, two aunts, and a cousin. I felt kind of "eh" during lunch, but at least there were no tears.

After lunch, I went with my mom and sister for pedicures. They got theirs first while I did a little reading, and visited. I was sitting there in the chair and kept having to wipe away tears that came out of no where. Seriously, in the SALON...for real, what is the deal?!

I did enjoy my pedicure, that's for sure (it's always nice to get a pedicure from someone who speaks English every once in a while!) But, I still felt a bit nauseous and teared up AGAIN when I was saying good-bye to my mom (until dinner time...busy day!) I told her I didn't feel well, but also shared that I had started seeing a counselor (kind of slid that right in...)

I have some things to do before dinner including going to the bank, calling my credit card company to let them know I'll be using it out of the country, and doing some laundry (and maybe some packing)

I guess I'm writing this with the hopes that this crazy "random" falling of the tears stops, or at least takes a nice long break, during dinner with the family. Explaining these tears would not be an easy task, considering I am not exactly sure what the deal is.

One of "those" days...at least it is cloudy/rainy and chilly, so maybe it is "the weather"...

Alright...off to run some errands just in case I end up having to work tomorrow.

1 comment:

Furry Bottoms said...: What was your mother's response about you seeing a counselor? I sincerely hope she was supportive of it. Since today was your last free session, have you decided whether you're going to keep going or not? I am here for you, girl.; 21 September, 2009 17:42

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Who's Who

Updated September 2013

I have one sister who is married and has two boys. "A" was born June 2009 and "I" was born March 2012. We are both really close to my parents and have lots of "family dinners".

I wrote a lot about my patients when I first started this blog. Some patients are still growing and thriving, and others have lost their battles.

My first foster placements lived with me from June 2010-September 2011. They were sisters who were 15 and almost 3 when they were placed with me and are now 18 and 5. I called M "the teen" and L "the little one". They live with their mom who still has many issues, but are doing well (ok) and I still have (not enough) contact with them.

My second foster placement came to me September 6, 2012. I call her Zoe and she turned 5 in April. She has cystic fibrosis and has been a patient on my floor at the hospital. The plan is still reunification.

Ivy is a 17-year-old whose mom died just before Thanksgiving. She has a Guardian, but is unable to live with him due to some family issues. She has no other family who is willing/able to take her. She moved in with me the beginning of February. She moved to a group home at the beginning of August as her needs were too great for me with my schedule and having another child with special needs.