Do I have anything to say?: Hard to Explain

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Hard to Explain

What a four days this has been! It was SO busy, but SO much fun! I spent half of yesterday crying for a number of reasons and barely got through that first sentence before my eyes filled with tears. It is hard to explain, and maybe even unexplainable (or just take a little more processing than I can do at this hour of the day). But, I wanted to at least write something (because, you know, this here "blog" is my journal and all...ha!) Maybe I'll do a "time line" in a later post, but this will do for now :o)

I picked up flowers before I went to pick up Ginger at the airport. I thought we'd both be able to enjoy them while she was here, but we ended up not being home very much at all (and she NEVER sat in any of my kitchen chairs...at least I don't THINK she did!) I snapped a couple pictures of them this morning while she was getting ready to go. They look like they will last a while, so that will be nice for me :o) It WAS really funny though when I was standing on the other side of security waiting for her with this bouquet of flowers. She was sitting in the back of the plane, so I saw lots of people before I saw her. A number of people (mostly men) asked if the flowers were for them and I began to wonder if it was really weird to bring flowers when you were picking up your friend at the airport...so, I attempted to sort of hide them/make them not as conspicuous until I saw her. Of COURSE she liked them and didn't think I was weird at all for bringing them (at least she didn't admit to that...ha!) so that was good :o)

This is one of only four pictures that were taken of us this weekend (so, there won't be a slide show this time...). Crazy that a photographer and a girl who likes taking pictures managed to get so few pictures, but at least we have a couple. This was taken last night when we were visiting my aunt and uncle. We actually both bought our shirts in Chicago (this post also gives a little "how we met" synopsis...as well as stories from that fun weekend) and that was the first time I had worn mine SINCE Chicago (it did not look right on me any of the times I had tried to wear it in the mean time...guess it only looks good when Ginger is around...ha!)

My sister (and me, I guess) arranged for Ginger to do some photography sessions while she was in town. While coming to see me is a good enough reason to head this way (LOL), we figured if she could make a little bit of money it would be an even bigger incentive to hop on that plane and come visit :o)

On Thursday, she took photographs of my nephew and my sister's nephew who is six weeks younger. She also photographed my sister's friend's family (their baby was REALLY sick a few times this year but doing a lot better). Friday night she took my sister's family Christmas pictures, and Saturday afternoon she did fall/Thanksgiving pictures for my brother-in-law's sister and her family. Confused?! Anyway, my first wave of tears came during the session yesterday. I was just overcome with emotion watching Ginger work with the 5-year-old half-brother of my sister's nephew (ha...hopefully I can follow this when I re-read it!) It was just SO sweet to see that interaction, to see how he trusted her...I guess, it was kind of like seeing what I hope people see when I work with my patients. It really was a beautiful and special and emotional and that sounds really weird but I have no other words...

There is so much more I want to write, so much more in my heart and in my mind, but I do have to go back to work tomorrow for the first time in nearly a week...so, I suppose I will end this "partial post" with a picture I took of my nephew today. He is getting SO big :o)

Good night.

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Who's Who

Updated September 2013

I have one sister who is married and has two boys. "A" was born June 2009 and "I" was born March 2012. We are both really close to my parents and have lots of "family dinners".

I wrote a lot about my patients when I first started this blog. Some patients are still growing and thriving, and others have lost their battles.

My first foster placements lived with me from June 2010-September 2011. They were sisters who were 15 and almost 3 when they were placed with me and are now 18 and 5. I called M "the teen" and L "the little one". They live with their mom who still has many issues, but are doing well (ok) and I still have (not enough) contact with them.

My second foster placement came to me September 6, 2012. I call her Zoe and she turned 5 in April. She has cystic fibrosis and has been a patient on my floor at the hospital. The plan is still reunification.

Ivy is a 17-year-old whose mom died just before Thanksgiving. She has a Guardian, but is unable to live with him due to some family issues. She has no other family who is willing/able to take her. She moved in with me the beginning of February. She moved to a group home at the beginning of August as her needs were too great for me with my schedule and having another child with special needs.