Do I have anything to say?: Nature's Beauty

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Nature's Beauty

Tonight, I am feeling pretty sad. There is so much going on inside my head and all around me. I have no regrets for feeling so deeply for the people I know who are hurting, but I am not sure how long I will be able to stay strong emotionally. I have a feeling that one of these days, one of these moments, I am just going to explode emotionally and it probably will not be pretty. In an attempt to ward off some of the sadness inside, I decided to look through some of my pictures. Not all of them have made it back onto my computer, but I was reminded of some very happy times. I am not an "outdoorsy" girl, but every once in a while I take a moment to enjoy nature's beauty. While I do really sort of wish I was near the ocean, and the warmer spring weather would be more than welcome, hopefully the memories and the promise of an end to winter will help me through the coming days.

Good night.

2 comments:

Laurie in Ca. said...: Spring is just around the corner Amanda and I am anxiously waiting for it too. It has been a strange winter of the heart for me and I can't quite put it into words. It helps alot for me to have my grandkids because it lifts my spirits
to watch their innocence. I will be praying for you as this long winter comes to an end soon. If I could, I would bottle up some of the ocean and send it your way. Hang in there and know you are thought of and loved from way over here.:) Have a good weekend my friend.

Love and Hugs, Laurie; 20 February, 2009 07:39
Furry Bottoms said...: It must be in the air. I have been feeling incredibly sad myself and one thing keeps coming to mind. I need to get to the ocean. I need to find a way to get to a beach or some lookout point where I can watch the ocean in all it's natural wild beauty. That has always soothed my soul. Too bad it's a 4 hours drive away from where I am. *sigh*. Someday!

Hang in there. It's OK to feel sad. You know there is always something to lead you towards happiness.

Take care, my friend.; 20 February, 2009 09:56

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Updated September 2013

I have one sister who is married and has two boys. "A" was born June 2009 and "I" was born March 2012. We are both really close to my parents and have lots of "family dinners".

I wrote a lot about my patients when I first started this blog. Some patients are still growing and thriving, and others have lost their battles.

My first foster placements lived with me from June 2010-September 2011. They were sisters who were 15 and almost 3 when they were placed with me and are now 18 and 5. I called M "the teen" and L "the little one". They live with their mom who still has many issues, but are doing well (ok) and I still have (not enough) contact with them.

My second foster placement came to me September 6, 2012. I call her Zoe and she turned 5 in April. She has cystic fibrosis and has been a patient on my floor at the hospital. The plan is still reunification.

Ivy is a 17-year-old whose mom died just before Thanksgiving. She has a Guardian, but is unable to live with him due to some family issues. She has no other family who is willing/able to take her. She moved in with me the beginning of February. She moved to a group home at the beginning of August as her needs were too great for me with my schedule and having another child with special needs.